Sacred Space

I came home yesterday very emotionally tired and raw. It was hard to hold back the tears and maybe I should have taken a moment to just let it all out but dinner needed to be fixed, some dishes needed to be done and a beautiful wife and three wonderful kids needed some time and engagement  so I didn’t.

It all started last week as we got a new visitor to our teen center. A young 14 year old, cute, shy, emo looking girl came with her step mom to check things out. I get a little worried and totally excited when we get new people to our teen center. Excited because I love to get to know these teens, to learn their story, to be able to learn from them, to see how God has already worked and is working in their lives, it truly is an adventure. Worried because their story so often is  full of pain, suffering, hopelessness, fear and violence and it is hard to become a carrier of their story, it’s hard because I have no quick fixes to offer, no easy buttons to hand out.

Back to the new girl. At 14, she finds her self with a meth addict mom, three months sober from pills and pot, she’s a cutter. She is trying to navigate her life in a new way, leaving her old life and friends behind. We have sat for two days now and she has poured her life out to us, her hard feelings and frustration with dealing with an absent drug addict mom, her deep, deep depression, horror stories of cutting, sad sad stories of trying to find some firm ground in a whirlwind of drugs and misery, scary stories of wondering if it’s worth it, wanting sometimes to do drugs again, to cut herself again. But there’s also some hope. In all this, inspired by her grand parents faith, she reads the bible, the psalms are her favorite book, she prays, she writes poetry to God, sometimes angry poetry. To sit and listen to her stories, to share her pain, her suffering, her struggles and to find God already at work in her life is humbling, stunningly beautiful, emotionally overwhelming and brings such hope. I love my job…

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~ by Rickard on March 19, 2008.

2 Responses to “Sacred Space”

  1. […] abmo wrote an interesting post today onHere’s a quick excerptTo sit and listen to her stories, to share her pain, her suffering, her struggles and to find God already at work in her life is humbling, stunningly beautiful, emotionally overwhelming and brings such hope. I love my job… […]

  2. This is good, Rickard. Hard, but really good. Thank you for sharing.

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